Who is Ted
First of all, I want to explain why my blog name is - "Most Ordinary Existence" 가장 보통의 존재 , my favourite music album by Sister's Barbershop(언니네이발관) in Korea. I have been listening this music since when this album published and still. It means quite deep for me as my past feeling and thoughts so on. - I listen this music anytime - sad, moody, relax, upset and miss my past and dreaming future -means any time whatever I want.
I haven't thought about I am so special in the world. I think I am really as a name " Most ordinary Existence". it doesn't mean neither I hate myself nor I have menthal problem etc. I would say I am the person who I wnat to know myself more and deeper as modest humanity.
I was born in 문경(Mongyoung) south Korea, the lastborn in 3 siblings - one sister and one brother.
I don't really have memories when I was young. I was in the closet because of my sexuality : I realised when I was 12 or earlier - maybe that's why I don't really want to keep my difficult memories in the past. I was really ordinary person in the school, normal score from exams ; not too high nor too low scores, I played game a lot with friends, I learnt how to smoke and drink with friends, I didn't have special friends either not really bulled. (well, I had few close friend who left when I came out to them - after that I decided not to be close anybody).
I loved drawing and arts when I was young, but I decided not to be an artist due to opposite opinion with parents. however I decided to believe all art. at the end I decided to be a chef because food can be 'the arts'.
still, I was painful because my sexuality. I ran away immediately from school friends after graduation. and I went uni, 1 year later I ran away again to army even didn't say good bye with friends. It sounds weird but I accepted my sexuality in the military service - I didn't have any problem in there but I met and saw soooooo many people soooo many problems and different colours each person indivisually. I realised that I was one of them who was looking for who I really am not who I needed to be.
long story short, I worked. I really loved my passion which cooking. specially educational way and vegan or health food.
I have been Vancouver, Canada - Perth, Australia : as 20th goal - working holiday visa. and now I am here in UK
I met my partner - Sean Leopold in London, we now have been 3rd years. He is the best friend and the most thoughtful person I have ever met.
I am still looking forward to see who I am and what I can do..
To be continued...v